Resisting - not repressing - sexual desires leads to self-knowledge

MODERN psychology tells us, and indeed, our entire culture seeks to convince us, that it's not good to repress or deny our sexual urges and desires. They're seen by many as simple biological needs that demand expression; it's seen as unhealthy not to seek that expression.

Now that might be true, were it not for the fact that sex really is never about "us." It's about the other person.

Ideally, it's about bringing all of who we are as male or female to bless someone else. As archaic as it may seem, the Bible tells us that sex most aptly blesses others and reflects God in the context of marriage between one man and one woman.

Where does this leave the unmarried? Well, it leaves them dependent on God to meet the desires they might otherwise seek to fulfill through sex. This is also the case for married folks who deal with corrupt desires.

This is tough stuff. It runs contrary to the culture. It runs smack up against the messages about sex we get from advertising, TV and the movies: that our drives and urges must be met at all costs.

Resisting where our sexual desires might take us is not for the faint-hearted. It's hard work. It's a form of suffering, made more extraordinary because it is entirely voluntary.

But there's an unseen benefit to resisting instead of repressing. C.S. Lewis, the Oxford University professor who wrote more than 40 books including "The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe" and "Prince Caspian," had something of value to say about this.

Lewis writes in "Mere Christianity" that " . . . People often misunderstand what psychology teaches about 'repressions.' It teaches that 'repressed' sex is dangerous . . . But when an adolescent or an adult is engaged in resisting a conscious desire, he is not dealing with a repression . . .

"On the contrary, those who are seriously attempting chastity are more conscious, and soon know a great deal more about their own sexuality than anyone else. They come to know their desires . . . as a rat-catcher knows rats or a plumber knows about leaky pipes. Virtue - even attempted virtue - brings light; indulgence brings fog."

Lewis is saying that it's in the active mode of resisting our desires that we come to know more of what fuels our hearts and emotions - that we come to be more aware of our true selves.

In a world that offers numerous ways to dull our emotions and anesthetize our anxieties, fears and uncertainties, often through sex, knowing one's self is an amazing thing. It opens us up to knowing God in the depth of our desires in ways we've never imagined.

Of course there's a hint of the supernatural in all of this. It's not ordinary to resist the pulls of the heart. It can be done only with the power God gives as we seek to worship him and put him first in our lives; by committing our unmet desires to God for him to satisfy in his own way - in his own timing.

This is not repression; it's honestly admitting our desires, yet yielding them to God.

Jesus demonstrated this by putting aside his own desires, drives and needs and yielding them to his father. He did this so we could know his forgiveness and love in spite of the weakness of our own flesh and our history of failures.

John Freeman is president of Harvest USA, a ministry which seeks to educate and equip the church to minister the Gospel to those impacted by sexual sin and addictions. For more information, visit its Web site at www.harvestusa.org