Recently, my husband and I were surprised with the news that I was several months pregnant. We also learned of complications that seriously compromised the viability of the baby. We chose to terminate the pregnancy. We told only a few people.
I am certain that we made the right decision, and am getting better, but there are times when the whole thing unexpectedly hits me. I can't help thinking about it, and I know this is part of the process of moving on, but at times I've gotten very emotional.
One of my coworkers is expecting a baby and is having a shower thrown in her honor. Only one of my coworkers knows about my situation, and I'd like to keep it that way, but it isn't easy to explain my random weeping, especially because I am not normally that way.
Should I go to this event, or give her a gift beforehand and say we can't make it? I don't want to avoid these things forever, or develop a complex about them, but it's just difficult right now.
Your complicated reaction to what you have been through is not only understandable but also expected. Your physician should have advised you to expect this - she or he could refer you to a support group if you think that it would be helpful. (I do.)
If you find yourself weepy at unexpected times, don't feel compelled to explain. Just say, "I'm sorry. . . . Give me a minute to get it together."