The education of Brad Lidge

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Brad Lidge was searching. He thought he was supposed to be a baseball player, but it seemed like all he did was have surgery. Stranded in Kissimmee, Fla., relegated to rehabilitation, Lidge needed more.

Drafted by the Houston Astros in 1998 after his junior year of college at Notre Dame, Lidge left school before graduating to start his minor-league career. But it hardly began before various ailments stalled it. While recovering from injuries to his pitching arm, Lidge followed his curiosity. The young pitcher dived into the Bible and science and history texts, searching for meaning in his problems.

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“You should never be satisfied with where you are in your personal quest,” the pitcher says.
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The conclusions Lidge reached during those summers have provided essential comfort ever since. Lidge and the Phillies begin the World Series tonight, but during the long regular season and a bewildering slump, he retained perspective. Through careful reading, thinking, and studying - Lidge is pursuing a degree in religious archaeology, with plans to eventually work in that field - he continues to cultivate a personalized Christianity. That process began in earnest in Kissimmee.

"I didn't know if I was meant to pitch," Lidge, 32, said on a recent morning, sitting in the stands of an empty Citizens Bank Park. "Whether it was then, or this year, or the rough year in 2006 I had in Houston, I always felt there was a higher purpose to life than just being a baseball player. And sometimes, even when things aren't going very well, it just means that when they finally go right, you'll be able to serve as a better example, as a baseball player and person."

 

An evolving faith

Religious faith can arrive for some in a single, sublime moment, but Lidge was never struck from a proverbial horse. His beliefs took shape gradually, beginning in childhood and accelerating during those minor-league days.

The concept of faith came to define Lidge's baseball life several ways. The faith he developed while in Kissimmee allowed him to climb to the major leagues. The faith he kept in himself when discarded by the Astros allowed him to succeed as a Phillie in 2008. Phils manager Charlie Manuel's faith in Lidge helped the closer through a shockingly difficult season in 2009. And Lidge's different yet powerful faith that he would rediscover his effectiveness in the playoffs has so far proved prescient.

The pitcher's Christianity defies common classification and is subject to constant revision.

"If I had to define myself now I would be nondenominational with a heavy appreciation for and leaning theologically toward Catholicism," Lidge said. "But there are some things in Catholicism that I don't subscribe to."

That perspective hardened when Lidge and his wife, Lindsay, visited the Vatican.

"If you've seen the Sistine Chapel and you see the amount of wealth amassed there . . . if they decide there is a time when they really want to use that for God and Jesus' cause, they could spread that," Lidge said.

"They could sell all those things, auction them off and probably feed half that world's starving population. There is that much wealth stored in the Sistine Chapel. For it just to be sitting there I think is a crime. It just doesn't make sense anymore. People have given well-deserved gifts to the church, but Jesus said, 'Store for yourself not treasures on earth but treasures in heaven.' These are treasures on earth. That's not what we're supposed to be doing."

Raised in a Catholic household near Denver, Lidge attended Mass every Sunday and served as an altar boy. But religion hardly defined his younger days.

"I don't think that I was necessarily big on religion then," he said. "I was more a philosophical, rationalize-things- out type of guy."

While at Notre Dame, a school run by Holy Cross fathers, Lidge melded courses in history and philosophy with a closer focus on the spiritual texts that were required. He read Stephen Hawking and the New Testament, unwittingly preparing himself for the more serious independent study a few years later in Kissimmee.

"I really enjoyed a lot of philosophy and theology at Notre Dame," Lidge said of the coursework, some of which is required and often taught with a religious orientation. "When I did that, I sort of reworked why I believed what I did."

Lidge still identifies strongly with Catholic beliefs, but attends the Protestant-leaning Sunday chapel services with most of his teammates. His primary spiritual goal is to develop a personal connection to divinity.

Secure in his opinions but reluctant to criticize others for theirs, Lidge approaches these subjects diplomatically.

"This might be a touchy issue," he continued, before pausing. "I'm trying to think of that best word; some of the ritualistic things that are involved, some of the questions on the pope's infallibility and when that started . . . I have a lot of respect for Catholicism, but sometimes the hierarchy can get in the way of the relationship between yourself and God and Jesus."

Lidge does not always agree with the common matches of religious and political thought.

"You come to learn that a lot of times faith and reason are pitted against each other," he said. "But more often than not, they support each other.

"A lot of times people feel that conservative, sometimes right-wing, politics are more Christian than left-wing politics. That's not necessarily true. If we really want to get into it, I think Jesus would pretty much be antiwar in any circle, and that is definitely more of a left-wing approach, more Democratic than Republican. I don't favor one party. I look at the issues and see which ones I stand with morally. And I vote based on that."

Describing himself as less of a "literal Christian," Lidge does not understand why what he calls peripheral issues become divisive.

"Do you believe in evolution or not? - those can be periphery issues," Lidge said. "I choose to focus on our belief in God, which is the underlying common ground. But wars were started over those periphery issues. Christians fighting Christians."

Lidge contrasted his focus on a personal relationship with God and those who proselytize.

"There is definitely a difference," Lidge said. "A lot of people have different paths to God. Sometimes we all try to use that wide brush, that everyone needs to have the same path to God. But I have a lot of respect for other religions. It doesn't make any sense to judge other religions and say that their path to God won't lead them on a great spiritual quest as well. Christianity is the right path for me, and I find a lot of strength in it. But I would never knock someone else's path to God.

"All world religions have their origins somewhere. Christianity wouldn't exist if it weren't for Judaism, so far be it from me to undercut another person's religion. I just know that Christianity is my personal path to God. And I even know that my Christianity might even be more liberal than in a lot of circles."

 

Higher education

As he suffered a league-leading total of 11 blown saves this season, Lidge remained serious about his job without losing perspective.

"There were times this year when I was absolutely flabbergasted that the results weren't coming around," he said.

Still, he revisited Scripture roughly three times each week, attended Sunday services and Wednesday Bible study with his teammates - and worked hard in pursuit of an online degree.

Shorty after he was traded to the Phillies, Lidge enrolled in online courses at Regis University, an institution run by Jesuit priests in Denver. Lidge finds his faith enhanced by the study of religious archaeology, specifically artifacts of the late Roman Empire, and the period when Christianity spread across Europe.

Brad and Lindsay have a daughter, Avery, 5, and a son Rowan, 10 months. But, as was the case with his days in Kissimmee, Lidge was bored on road trips, so he began using the time to develop his intellect and faith.

"There is so much downtime on the road," he said. "At home, we're super busy with kids, but on the road, I was just wasting time. I wanted to be doing something toward when baseball is over, and that's why I started taking the classes."

Lidge expects to finish his undergraduate degree within a few years. He plans to pursue a master's, and hopefully a career excavating religious artifacts in Europe, after retiring from baseball.

"I don't ever want to stop learning," he said. "You should never be satisfied with where you are in your personal quest."

 


Contact staff writer Andy Martino at 215-854-4874 or amartino@phillynews.com.

 


 

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Comments   
Posted 06:46 AM, 10/28/2009
mmds
Intelligent, thought-provoking comments about a difficult and emotional subject. That aside, Lidge is a really good pitcher. The Phillies, and the city, are lucky to have him.
Posted 07:35 AM, 10/28/2009
swash1
Good article. A glimpse into a very personal subject.
Posted 07:39 AM, 10/28/2009
Kenny Junod
hopefully Lidge (mole) get's in done in save opps
Posted 07:39 AM, 10/28/2009
Kenny Junod
hopefully Lidge (mole) get's in done in save opps
Posted 07:45 AM, 10/28/2009
stoneman
ALL of sports need more professionals like him. 'nough said.
Posted 08:18 AM, 10/28/2009
PhillyIam
Jesus has nothing to do with it.
Posted 08:41 AM, 10/28/2009
greekeagle
PhillyIam? I am a devout Christian as well, and share as many if not more traits as Mr. Lidge. I too, do not agree wholly with Catholicism, but will not and cannott judge. I believe that no matter what you want to call him, (GOD, ALLAH, BUDDHA, ETC.) There is in fact an ultimate creator that started this whole thing in motion. I pray daily, and can only hope for the best. Just remember this, be thankful for all of the things you have, and all of the things that you dont have.
Posted 08:42 AM, 10/28/2009
Buck Dharma
When will Jesus bring the pork chops?
Posted 08:42 AM, 10/28/2009
greekeagle
Philsblo? Peace be with you.
Posted 08:48 AM, 10/28/2009
Jean Valjean
Great insight. Following that logic, we should sell the Liberty Bell, Independence Hall, copies of the Declaration (they're just paper), and other so-call 'national treasures' and give the proceeds to the poor. We can sell the Sistine Chapel also; Osama should be able to afford it. After all, nothings too good for the poor, including art and cultural heritage. How many poor can be helped just by selling off the Philly Art Museum?
Posted 08:54 AM, 10/28/2009
stefek23
God help you, Philsblo. Mostly with your spelling.
Posted 09:07 AM, 10/28/2009
oldecityslicker
Philsblo, the difference between Philly fans and Yankee followers is that we appreciate our guys on and off the field. Obviously, you can't understand the concept. Good insight into Lidge, Andy. Hope whatever he believes in works. GO PHILS!
Posted 09:09 AM, 10/28/2009
Russ
Buck, you will find out what Jesus brings and when. I'm afraid, though, that you won't like what's in store for you...
Posted 09:27 AM, 10/28/2009
pj katauskas
Great article. A thinking man's pitcher.
Posted 09:29 AM, 10/28/2009
CleanupPhilly
Brad Lidge, you are inspirational.
Posted 09:35 AM, 10/28/2009
smartrnu
i'm praying for a repeat
Posted 09:35 AM, 10/28/2009
riverhealer
Jesus McNugget! Glad to hear Lidge is a liberal Christian and not one of those self-righteous bible babbling idiots.
Posted 09:52 AM, 10/28/2009
Manor2009
Pope Brad I. The hierarchy stands in the way of his relationship with God, so I appoint myself hierarch and the final arbiter of truth. Sounds like another victim of the culture of relativism. Following his logic, why doesn't Brad sell his World Series ring and donate the proceeds to the poor? And what about that multi-million dollar contract, Brad, are you donating it to the poor?
Posted 09:56 AM, 10/28/2009
Jaxen
I met Lidge when he was an Astros farmhand in '99 and 2000. He had many injuries (some fluky ones like a liner off his forearm that ended his career as a starter/began it as a closer). He's had many things happen to shake and challenge his faith, am glad to see nothing could shake it.
Posted 09:58 AM, 10/28/2009
T3rdEyevisual
I do not take for granted the character of the members of this team. I mean, stop and think about it, every single member of this team is a class act - homegrown. I can see clearly now the rain is gone - I understand, somewhat, the plan the Phillies brass had. We are very, very lucky.
Posted 10:14 AM, 10/28/2009
vafan
A thought provoking, sometimes controversial subject and the comments section did not disappoint. Y'all hit that softball out of the park! Oh, and PLEASE don't feed the trolls! If you can't recognize the one here then maybe you just shouldn't post at all.
Posted 10:14 AM, 10/28/2009
karbase8
Nice article, I share a lot of his beliefs being raised Catholic and I find it relevant with the Archdiocese closing schools and going after wealth rather than helping the poor, I like his thoughts on the Sistine Chapel
Posted 10:21 AM, 10/28/2009
mg3212
I think Lidge is probably a nice guy and all but he's your typical religous dummy...with all due respect. His quote - "You come to learn that a lot of times faith and reason are pitted against each other," he said. "But more often than not, they support each other." Um sorry Brad, faith and reason don't support each other. The definition of faith is a belief in something not based on proof. So actually faith and reason are completely contradictory.
Posted 10:40 AM, 10/28/2009
chris duckworth
As a Lutheran pastor I find this article very interesting .... though (with all respect for Mr. Martino) I think a religion report could have probed some of these issues in a more adept manner. Lidge throws some bombs at the Vatican in here, and I wouldn't be surprised if his comments about the Sistine Chapel are received as offensive by some. Also, I would be interested in a report (next year?) on the religious culture in baseball. The religion in football has been widely reported, with current and former players serving as ministers, players meeting in prayer circles after games, etc.. But what about baseball? Major League Chapel is a pretty conservative protestant ministry that meets in big league clubhouses on Sunday games, but how does that ministry sit with the large number of (presumably Roman Catholic) latino players, or the Asian players with Buddhist or Shinto backgrounds? Are there other religious ministries serving in major league clubhouses? Are they any Sandy Koufax's any longer, sitting out games out of religious observance (Good Friday, sabbath, Yom Kippur, Ramadan?). Still, when most Phillies reports these days are talking about Cairo and Bastardo and 8/20/100 things you need to know about the Yankees, this is refreshing. Thank you.
Posted 11:20 AM, 10/28/2009
jamesiri
A nice piece - definitely brought the readers a 3-D picture of a man we know only about 5 minutes at a time. (well, sometimes its more like 10 agonizing minutes, but at least that gives us time to research our ancient artifacts.)
Posted 11:50 AM, 10/28/2009
nixman101
buck... you're crazy man....lmao!!!!
Posted 11:57 AM, 10/28/2009
DameB
Okay, so Brad views the Catholic hierarchy as being an obstruction to knowing Jesus. Solution? He sets himself up as his own hierarchy, effectively cutting himself off from any objective order of truth. Now Brad is trapped in his own head and his own subjective thoughts. Ironically, Brad himself now becomes the obstacle to know Jesus. In any event, this was a good article, and situates Lidge with Carlton, Daulton, and others whose thought process leaves me scratching my head.
Posted 12:39 PM, 10/28/2009
Ariadne8
I did not care for this at all. I resent what he said about the Vatican and its art collection. His outlook is wrong. There is more than physical humger. There is a hunger in the soul for beauty. The art works in the Vatican are for all the world to share and they are staying with the Vatican forever. Cultural treasures are what makes the world a wonderful place. He is wrong.
Posted 12:59 PM, 10/28/2009
mattand
If his faith helps Lidge beat the Yanks, fine. I just don't get why so many athletes put so much stock in religious faith. Do they really think God or whatever is rewarding them when the win and punishing them when they lose? I would think the almighty would have better things to worry about, such as preventing kids from getting cancer (which he does a sh*tty job of, BTW)
Posted 01:02 PM, 10/28/2009
mattand
@BuckDharma: Nice Carlin reference. I doubt Jesus is bringing any sort of refreshing snack, because 1) chances are that a man with supernatural powers named Jesus never existed and 2) the Rapture is a load of superstitious rubbish.
Posted 01:10 PM, 10/28/2009
mattand
@mg3212: Just noticed your post. Overall I agree, although I wouldn't necessarily label Lidge a dummy. He's interested in archeology, which probably places him intellectually light years ahead of many athletes.
Posted 01:18 PM, 10/28/2009
jim715
nice piece...dont agree with all that he said but here's a guy with a brain, a heart and realization that in the grand scheme of things, baseball means nothing...and in this bizarre season he has had, you realize it took something special inside to persevere... of course the Yanks closer, Mariano Rivera, is a great man of faith who does a ton of good when he's not playing baseball...
Posted 02:10 PM, 10/28/2009
Aquila
Now I have even more respect for Brad than ever. He's a spiritual seeker, not a follower of pompous church officials who would dictate a my-way-or-the-highway belief system.
Posted 03:26 PM, 10/28/2009
onetimer
hes a fellow Golden Domer, while his season was tough to watch as a die hard fan, he still never gave up and Charlie Manuel to his eternal credit had his back.. thats how its done.. good for you Brad.. Go Phillies..
Posted 03:45 PM, 10/28/2009
mangotree
I thought Jean Valjean made an excellent point above. I, too, disagreed with Lidge's view of the Vatican. I thought of the passage in the Bible where Mary Magdelene annoints Jesus with oil: "There were some who were indignant. 'Why has there been this waste of perfumed oil? It could have been sold for more than three hundred days' wages and the money given to the poor.' They were infuriated with her. Jesus said, "Let her alone. Why do you make trouble for her? She has done a good thing for me." (MK 14:4-6) Jesus makes his love and concern for the poor clear in the Bible BUT he also makes it clear that worship of God takes precendence over every other thing that we do. Who knows how many people have grown closer to God through the beauty of the Sistine Chapel? Christians ARE called to help the poor in as radical of a way as Jesus did, but we are NEVER to put caring for the poor ahead of praising God in our list of priorities. God comes first.
Posted 03:53 PM, 10/28/2009
ErikT
It's hard not to have a ton of respect for Brad Lidge. He is the same man whether he has 0 blown saves or 11. Class act.
Posted 04:21 PM, 10/28/2009
mindstorms
As far as the riches the Catholic Church owns I think what should be done with them is best answered by thinking what would Jesus do with them?
Posted 04:41 PM, 10/28/2009
jesse livermore
I wish the author had explored more deeply the flip side of the issue, in particular if Brad is concerned he might burn in hell for all eternity if he blows a save.
Posted 04:44 PM, 10/28/2009
VermontPhilsFan
I'm refreshingly surprised by the great majority of these comments. I was expecting stuff like, "who care what an athlete thinks about religion and philosophy; just worry about what you're being paid for--being a good closer". I think Brad is pretty special. Let's hope he continues an effective postseason...it will very well make or break the Phil's chances.
Posted 04:58 PM, 10/28/2009
MFPhils
Jean...You really need to find out how to get enrolled in the school Brad Lidge is going to, because your reading comprehension is miserable. Although, maybe it's just desire to turn something positive into negative. You obviously have never seen the items laying around in the vatican or chapel. These aren't historic items he is talking about, these are gifts, very valuable gifts, that serve no purpose other than to place their power into a visual perspective for all who enter. Having items that teach us about our history is one thing, keeping around worldly treasures for the sake of having them be seen is another. I can only hope that somehow your eyes are opened up to the truth, and that you do not continue to criticize things before you have educated yourself beforehand.
Posted 05:08 PM, 10/28/2009
jjbrett23
Brad seems like a very intelligent, stand-up guy. Also, this is a touchy subject and Andy did a great job writing this peace. Way to go A.M.!!
Posted 06:21 PM, 10/28/2009
DameB
MFPhils, the only one betraying ignorance here is you (together with Mr. Lidge). When Catholic immigrants came to this country, poor and uneducated as they were, they nonetheless erected great churches and paid for them as an expression of themselves and their identity as Catholics. Why doesn't Mr. Lidge go after the American military complex and all the billions blown on pointless wars - money that could have been used to 'feed the poor' etc.? Why not go after all the pork in the government budget? The "Vatican" is a soft target. The bottom line is that confused "Catholics" like Mr. Lidge would rather follow the touchy feely of Oprah and the 'self' then embrace the hard sayings of the gospel.
Posted 12:18 AM, 10/29/2009
BlairW
Andy, really thoughtful article. And good interview of Lidge to learn all these things. Very thought-provoking. If only others were as open to reviewing their own beliefs. Good luck, Brad and family.
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